A LETTER..:)

My dearest xej,

Happy, happy, happy birthday! I wish you nothing but the only best. you're a full-grown lady now. Young and Fresh only 17..and I know that your dreams and goals are getting ambitious each day. You tend to do anything assuming that you can but I will divulge to you one's life painful fact - YOU ARE JUST HUMAN and you CAN'T DO anything. xej, just go with the flow just like when you were sixteen - joyful, child-like (childish and child-like are entirely different) girl who just laugh and laugh until those heartaches were gone. Being a seventeen year old is an indication to have a bitter-free life. Let go of those bitterness, forgive those people who hurt you and take care of those who loved and love you. Don't think that life gave you nothing 'coz in reality life gave you the best of everything. You have your happy and complete family, Your friends whose always been there for you all this time, your hope and fighting spirit that keep you from going on and the life itself which you are enjoying right now are such great graces from above.
Still believe in destiny, signs, wishes, power of laughter, magic of tears, true happiness, soulmate and even the simple yet unnoticed miracles of God. Just stay the same. Stop labeling yourself as one of those second bests in town because you are not one of them. You are one of the bests. Just remember the theory of existence : over 600 millions sperm cells, only you survived!, that's one sign that you are really destined to be the best.
You are old enough to know the big difference between fortuitous and inevitable, right and wrong, delusion and reality, love and infatuation, to love and to be loved, reading and comprehending, sacrifice and giving up and being a man and a human.
There are a lot of people who love xej so much. You are not just aware because you are focusing too much on other things. OK. Let's just say you don't want your parents to be disappointed....but you forgot yourself that you didn't give time for her. I understand that you're giving your parent's what's due to them...but what you're giving them is more than enough. Give yourself some rewards. Laugh some more. It seems that when you are with me you forget to give even your simplest smile. TALK to me. You know that whatever happens, you can have me. As always.

with much love,
Xej

I did this letter to myself an hour after my birthday. It's my superego that writes about me and those things that will be about me....


"Yes, my dreams are ambitious but it's always possible."