What’s next?

I've been stupid this week. No, not just this week. I mean, all the time.

I don't know if I am just really ill-fated or it's just simply my inborn stupidity that made this year so terrible. My "I-am-the-best" mantra in life is not anymore effective. It's getting powerless. I guess I have to change it with "I-am-better-than-you". Who knows? It's more powerful than the former one. Ha-ha-ha

It's another full-length post about my stupidity. Nothing special. Just want to express these sentiments that used to surround me these past few days.

Happy harsh day didn't mean having no date on valentines but my heart being broken on exactly the same day. I don't know if it's right to feel this way or maybe the appropriate question was do I have the right to feel this way? Ok, if it's her you're free, if it's me then you're lucky. Stupid.

Stupid me. Forgetting everything during exam is being stupid, isn't it? I don't know what happen to my brain cells maybe they're all dying. These brain cells of mine would rather die than be stupid like me. Or maybe they're just bored inside my head. Stupid brain cells.

To lose a thing that's not yours is being stupid. The hand-out would rather burn itself than to stay in my bag. My bag isn't that dirty. A lot of crumpled paper and wrappers of lemon square cheese cake but not dirty. Stupid hand-out!

Forgetting your 465 peso change on the counter is more stupid. The change would rather keep itself on a cash drawer than be used by me. Four hundreds, 3 twenties and 5 peso coin are intimidated with many thousands I have. Ha-ha-ha. Stupid money.

Answering without comprehending the question is a stupid thing also. How come that pink eye and sore eyes could be the same? They're both color pink, so what's the sense of distinguishing the difference?! Stupid question!

To lose your balance in front of many people before a community duty would start is another funny yet so stupid thing. The road was not slippery, I'm just really clumsy. I'm used to it. Stupid balance!

Love, exams, brain cells, 465 peso change, hand-out, question and the balance were all stupid BUT I AM more stupid than them.

What would be the next stupidity? Mess on my birthday? It's not impossible.

What if it's the other way around? It could be fate somehow. Maybe.

POOR ME..

I'm so depress! I don't know if my clinical instructor would devour me or would just praise me sarcastically.

It just so happened kasi na we didn't have our jeepney that week and also our gorgeous teacher was not around. Ka.depress si manong Ipe! And we were forced to hitch on different jeepney that's why we don't have clear info's about the things to be submitted on the next duty.

The problem is that denver texted our gorgeous teacher on what to submit the next day, unfortunately maam gorgeous did not reply, I called to her phone and it rang then she texted me like "hus dis?" and I replied saying "maam, gud am po, we just want to ask if ano po ipa.submit nio sa amin (class of sir reyes, group2) for the next duty. We hitched on different jeepneys po kasi last week that's why we were not given an instruction about it. Sori po sa istorbo." And she did not reply.

I'm anxious because I guess she got disturbed. But what's wrong with the question raised? What do you think? Poor little xej and denver, ready your shield next week or else if words can kill this would be our last week.

Denver! It's your idea. I hate you.

PARTS WOULD STILL BE PARTS NO MATTER WHAT.

DISTANCING DOESN'T ALWAYS MEAN IT'S OVER. Sometimes kasi you have to put a gap between some things so that each one can grow perfectly and know the worth of the other thing.

COMMUNICATION. For me, its just an external element of friendship. We have this that's why we became friends. However, according to him we're losing it.

Does our friendship can just be measured by a constant communication?!

We've been into a lot of drama as he describes it. But it's not. We've been into a lot of MISUNDERSTANDINGS I may say.

Even though we always have differences on a lot of things but at the end I know that he knows I'm right and he would give in when the argument seems to cause a big fight. and that's why I love him so! :D

He is my pakner for life (parang MOR). There are a lot of things he knows about me, and that's the best part of our friendship. I mean, I can blab everything to him. And when i say everything, practically about everything from the most sensitive to the wackiest.

When I'm talking to him, I couldn't afford to lie because he accepts every single thing that composes my personality. I could spill my heart out, I could act like child, I could be mature, I could always be myself.

He's easy to talk with. We could talk all day long, all night long and maybe even 24/7. I could share how my day was, how's my life, what's going on with my love life…and he was just there- listening.

After that he'd be the man of honest constructive criticisms. Yes, he hurts me a lot when it comes to his opinion and reactions but as what you have read it's an HONEST CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM and besides I'm still BEAUTIFUL..so, ok rana. hahaha (suya dead)

We don't have many memories to cherish because we were not this close way back when we were in high school. We just got to know each other through text (ang pangit noh?!). But even if we're just text mates (this is how my board mates describe us) he really made me feel exceptional in his own little ways.

And no matter what happens, even distance, time, and any circumstances would keep us apart, HE WOULD STILL BE MY PAKNER FOREVER.